Mommy to Mom

my mom sent me this & I wanted to share with all of you because it is so true:

MOTHERS

Real Mothers don't eat quiche;
They don't have time to make it.

Real Mothers know that their kitchen utensils
Are probably in the sandbox.

Real Mothers often have sticky floors,
Filthy ovens and happy kids.

Real Mothers know that dried play dough
Doesn't come out of carpets.

Real Mothers don't want to know what
The vacuum just sucked up.......

Real Mothers sometimes ask 'Why me?'
And get their answer when a little
Voice says, 'Because I love you best.'

Real Mothers know that a child's growth
Is not measured by height or years or grade...
It is marked by the progression of Mommy to Mom to Mother.....

The Images of Mother

4 YEARS OF AGE - My Mommy can do anything!

8 YEARS OF AGE - My Mom knows a lot! A whole lot!

12 YEARS OF AGE - My Mother doesn't know everything!

14 YEARS OF AGE - My Mother? She wouldn't have a clue.
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16 YEARS OF AGE - Mother? She's so five minutes ago.

18 YEARS OF AGE - That old woman? She's way out of date!

25 YEARS OF AGE - Well, she might know a little bit about it!

35 YEARS OF AGE - Before we decide, let's get Mom's opinion.

45 YEARS OF AGE - Wonder what Mom would have thought about it?

65 YEARS OF AGE - Wish I could talk it over with Mom.

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure she carries, or the way she combs her hair

The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes,
Because that is the doorway to her heart,
The place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole,
But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.
It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she
Shows, and the beauty of a woman with passing years only grows!

Confusion

Self Confidence.. oh how that word haunts me. I am not one to have self confidence I never have.. weather it be my body, in work, my writing abilities, when has come to meeting new people or interest in men. I just don't have it.. I try so hard to act as though I do but I don't.. at least not the self confidence that I want to have.

So I signed up to be my own boss through a new company selling beauty products.. once I had talked to my friend about how well she was doing & all the awesome benefits the company has to offer I was sold.. & thrilled to finally make some money doing something I know I would love. After a few days reality has set in now.. I am so scared of failing, of not achieving the goals I want & for me to not have the self confidence that I know I need.

Its really frustrating to feel this way. Its like once I talk to someone from the company I get excited all over then.. when I sit down & look at all that is involved I am so overwhelmed that I just don't want to go any further. I don't like feeling this way.. I don't like feeling confused on what I should do or how I should feel. I am so scared at failing & I am even more afraid to invest & it not be a positive career path for me. I keep telling my self that I can do this that I do have what it takes.. then in the back of my mind I am left questioning myself... ugh!

I also have a job interview on Wednesday morning in Seattle working for a medical company making pretty good money.. I have already passed all their assessments so that is a good thing.. but now again I am worried that going to the interview is a waste. I am scared that I won't have what they are looking for or that since I have been staying home for the last two years they will be scared to hire me.. I am also scared that all the events we have coming up will prevent me from accepting the job, then there is also the worry of what if I get pregnant & can't work then I wasted their time & what if I continue to work until we have the baby then find I no longer want to? We know that Shiloh is ready for school & that she will love it.. but will I love not spending my days with her?? I am so scared & confused right now..

To continue staying home caring for Shiloh & babysitting on the side..
To stay home & also sell beauty products on my own terms...
or
To return to working a full time job??

These are the questions I have in my mind & I am having such  hard time deciding.. why do something have to be so difficult?

Love what you do & do what you love

So for a long long time now I have wanted to get back into the beauty field. I love all things beauty: Make-up, facial's, hair, fashion.. you name it.. I love it! I have been looking into all avenues of how to get into the field & start a career but still maintain my home life & spend my days with my girl.

One of my friends who I used to work with back in Reno & I used to watch her daughter works for Mary Kay. I was noticing a lot of positive post & comments on her FB page so me of course wanted to know more. I have always wanted to work for Mary Kay I just thought the start up cost were going to be tremendous.. well I was wrong. So I told my friend I wanted to know more. So we chatted on the phone she told me all the amazing things starting your own business has to offer & how wonderful of a company it was & I was sold. So I told the hubby {okay asked} that I was going to sign up & get this thing started. He was excited for me as he always is.. I love the support he gives.

So if you know me you know that I love make-up.. & that I have been thinking of going to school to be an esthetician.. well my dream of making others feel as beautiful as they are is over.. I am officially an Independent Mary Kay Consultant & I couldn't be more excited.

I just signed up yesterday & today I am going to have my orientation & I can't wait to learn more. I feel so excited right now to be doing something that I have wanted to do for so long & that its my own business.. meaning my schedule, my own clients & how I want to run things & that is just awesome because as most people know I love to be in charge :-)

I am so excited for this new chapter in my life to begin & to start meeting some amazing women & doing something I passionate about. Like the saying goes.. "Love what you do & do what you love" & that is for sure what I am doing :-)

Once I get everything rolling I will let you all know!

Busy Bee

So I haven't been babbling much lately.. just have had a lot of things going on I guess. I started the fertility which has made me an emotional wreak.. then last week Shiloh started to get sick.. then I was hit with Allergies AGAIN!! Then this weekend we spent most of our time trying to purchase a new car only to find that we should hold off for now so we can get exactly what we want. Then today I was informed by Shannon that they are not going to need me right now to watch Brandon after this week. So just a lot of craziness!! So I have been resting, caring for kids, working with car sales men & now job searching like crazy. Its been pretty busy around here.

On a positive note Shiloh has been sleeping in her bed EVERY night now since we purchased her toddler bed & she loves it. No luck with getting pregnant yet I may have to have them up my fertility because I am not ovulating which I should have by now I think?? Other then that I have been seeing what is out there as far as jobs & babysitting. I am also looking into returning to school to get certified in medical billing so I can do that.. so will see what happens there.

Lately I have been in this really weird funk of having no motivation.. I don't know if it is the fertility or just something I am going through but I really don't like it. I want to get things done but when it comes time to do them I find other things to do instead.. which is not good. Also I have been so exhausted.. so that doesn't help either.

Today I brought B to our house so I could get some things done around here & to apply for jobs. My sister in law is coming to stay the night with the kids tomorrow so I need to get my house ready.. {its so messy right now}.

But as of next week I will not have B any longer during the week.. sniff sniff. Shiloh & I are going to miss spending our days with him, its a good thing Shannon & I have become close so we can still visit & have play dates. In time they will need a sitter again.. so I know then I will have my days back with him if I don't find something else before then.

So that pretty much sums up what is happening with us. Hopefully soon we will receive some good news because we are in need of it & I think its about time for us since it has been a long time since we have had any really good news come our way.

I am learning to be be patient & to take things for what they are.. its not easy playing the waiting game.. but I just have to be thankful for ALL I do have & stop worrying so much about what we don't have. Life is too short right?

Little Miss Independent!

So my dear sweet 18 month old is turning into quite the big girl. She loves her new bed. In fact for 5 nights straight now she has slept through the night in her own bed. When its time to go night night we tell her lets brush our teeth & then get in our big girl bed & she gets up & walks to the stairs. She also now lets me know when she is ready for bed or a nap too.

Today she got up from playing grabbed pink {her blanket} & went up the stairs & was shaking the gate. So I let her through & she ran to her room & starting shaking the gate on her door so I put her in her room. She looks back at me & says "nigh nigh" climbs in her bed & covers herself up & goes "Muah". I was in such shock.. for someone who would scream & cry & throw everything out of her crib that she could & then would scream for as long as possible until we saved her from going to nigh nigh in her crib.. to telling me its nigh nigh time.. is amazing!

I feel so much better each day now that I don't have to share my bed with her or have to get up at night & save her from her bed. The girl LOVES her new toddler bed & I couldn't be more excited & proud. She is becoming so independent {just like me} & I love it but at the same time it makes me sad. She is growing way too fast!! I want her to stay my sweet baby forever.

Shiloh is Little Miss Independent that is for sure❤

25 Things About Me

So I don't know if most of you know this but I love Tori Spelling!! She has to be one of my biggest idol's aside from my mom & sister. I am obsessed with her show & I love her clothing line too Little Mavens Tori Spelling. I love her honesty, humor & the fact that even though she is famous.. she is still a real person & not fake like most are.

I am a fan of her's on FB {click here if you want to become a fan too} & I just read her Tori Spelling 25 Things You Don't Know About Me & decided I wanted to do a list of my own for all of you as well.

So here goes:

Would You Cringe Over This?

So I am going to admit one of my flaws as a mommy. I allow my daughter to watch TV.. I am one of those people who can't just sit around in silence. I mean Shiloh babbles but she is not nearly as loud as the TV noise. So YES I am a person who has the TV on ALL day pretty much, unless we are reading books, coloring or doing some sort of craft. But its not always cartoons on my TV its Music too. I know.. I know it's horrible. I have tried to not have it on & it is just creepy. I don't like it.
But even thought I do have the TV on most days it is always educational or HGTV & if not it's the music channel.. at night my husband & I of course watch our shows & during nap time I watch my soaps but the rest of the time its.. Yo Gabba Gabba Yo Gabba Gabba Yo or Dora Dora Dora The Explorer LOL. During the day I mostly have  Nick Jr. on I think its one of the better channels. Tell me that is horrible but honestly she doesn't sit glued to the TV.. she is 18 months & her attention span is not that big so most of the time its just background noise. But she does love Yo Gabba Gabba, Dora, The Wiggles & Ni how kai lan but all the other shows she could honestly care less about. I know most will have their own opinion & disagree but she does actually learn from these shows. She says words in the other languages, learns new words & she talks back to the TV all the time when they ask questions. So maybe it can rot your brain but she does also learn from it as well & Stephen & I do know most of the them songs sadly enough LOL.

Oregon Visit

Sorry I haven't posted in so long my allergies have had the best of me. But this weekend we took a much needed trip to Oregon to visit with my Brother & Sister in law & kids. With all this heart stuff Shiloh is having we just need to get away & take our minds off all of it.
My sister in law's sister Lisa is having a baby. So we attended her shower.. well Shiloh & I did. Daddy went golfing with uncle Joey. We love spending time down there & having the kids play together. We also had a fun day of shopping as well which Shiloh just loved!! Here are some pictures from our visit.

Tomorrow is Shiloh's 2nd cardiologist appointment to have an echo done & to speak with the cardiologist in regards to her arrhythmia. We are staying positive & praying that it is nothing more then a murmur. So please keep our baby girl in your thoughts & prayers.

& it was a Beautiful Day!

So today we had to take Shiloh to get a chest x-ray & to have an EKG. She has a heart murmur & the doctor just wanted to make sure it is nothing to fuss about. We did receive an up date later today that she does have a small arrhythmia so we are going to have to go back to the Cardiologist on Tuesday the 30th for an Echo test now. I am scared but staying positive.. I have to for my sweet girl.

Then we headed to Seattle to see Uncle Andrew. This time of year the Cherry Blossoms are in bloom at UW {University Of Washington}. It was such a beautiful day. Blue skies, Sunny & in the high 60's. I love this weather & wish it was spring year round. Shiloh had so much fun running & chasing her uncle & us it was so great to see her smiling. She is such a sweet, loving, happy girl & we couldn't ask for more. We were also able to get some great pictures while there so here is what we got.. Enjoy.. oh & don't for get to click here to see the rest.

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I Wanna Learn

So I am a crafty creative girl & I so want to learn how to create blog pages for people. I made the one I have but it is through a site that you have to pay for & it's not really for blogs.. so I want to know what sites other people use or what software to make blogs. I also have a Macbook so it has to be compatible. So if ANYONE can assist or give me the IN I would so appreciate it :-)

Oh What A Weekend

Visited..

 with my besties for Gabby's Birthday...

 had a great day of eating some yummy Italian, wine & shopping..

then we headed over to see the cousins..

 bath time sure was fun..

I love watching them all play..

& shopping with 3 toddlers, man what an experience that was :-)

but the best thing was seeing my niecey pooh scoot..

Great Day

So today was a great day.. well aside from this horrible stomach ache I have had all day but what's new. Anyways.. it started with Stephen getting up with Shiloh & allowing me to sleep in until about 9 AM. I made Stephen & I egg sandwiches for breakfast & then when we were dressed & packed we headed out the door. First we tried going to the DMV to get our address changed on our license but it was packed.. so we headed to Bellevue's DMV.. & that one was PACKED. So we gave up on that. Then headed to Sammamish & we both got our hair cut.. Stephen's turned out well but the girl went a little clipper happy.. oops & mine turned out wonderful.. NO MORE MULLET YAY! Ok it wasn't a complete mullet but it sure did feel like it. Then we had sushi which I have been dying to have for days now. Then we went to see our Tax guy Bob. If you read my When it Rains it Pours then you would know we were told we had to pay a lot in taxes. I never said how much because I was embarrassed but it was $14K.. yeah so you can see why I almost fainted & had a heart attach that day. Well anyways we found out some SUPER GREAT news that we actually don't owe that at all.. LONG STORY.. & we are actually going to be getting some money back. Not a ton.. but that is expected since we don't own a home anymore but hay.. its money we didn't expect so that is wonderful. So after that great news we headed home... but of course we made a few stops on the way. We looked at some model homes & no we aren't looking to buy just yet but we just like to look & see what is out there. Then after that we went to a few stores & then had dinner at Red Robin & headed home. I was still feeling super sick so I laid down for a bit while Stephen called Comcast to let them know that once again our service is not working. This time the internet!! Ugh so annoying I can't wait until our contract is up with them in April so we can get Direct TV back. Anyways that was my super great day with my two loves. Oh & Shiloh's new favorite word is "NO" everything is "No" now.. its so cute & funny.. man do I love that child. My husband is amazing too.. I am one lucky lady :-)

New Hair Cut

A Day In Seattle

So today we went into Seattle. I love Seattle, every part of the city is beautiful to me & so interesting. We had breakfast in Pike Place & then walked around the market. We picked up fresh fruit & flowers & on our walk around town found a cute candy shop called Rocky Mountain Candy Factory & picked up two candy apples for a treat. It was over cast today & pretty cold down there since it is on the waterfront but it was still amazing as always. There was this amazing singer in the market with such a unique voice.. I wanted to take her picture but I didn't if was OK so I didn't but I am sure one day she will be famous.. I would like to hope so at least. Shiloh loves all the people & to say "Hello". She always receives so many complements & that makes my heart fill with happiness. I love Seattle & that we can take a short drive & be there. I wanted to share with you our day in pictures.. I hope you enjoy :-)

Driving into Seattle

Pike Place Market

↓This Cafe is From Sleepless In Seattle↓

My Two Loves.. Looking at all the produce & flowers

The World Famous Pike Place Fish Market

The Yummy Candy Shop Rocky Mountain Candy Factory

& My Princess checking out all the sweets.. yummy