Why No Blogging

I wanted to let you know that I am not abandoning my blog LOL.. I just have a lot going on until the first of February with moving. So once we are finished with that I will be back in full effect. 

Hope you all are wonderful!!

Baby this year Maybe??

So if you read my old blog you may have read about us wanting another baby {I also added it to this one too A Baby} & my condition called PCOS. My husband & I have been trying since last April to have another miracle baby & just recently I gave up & started looking into fertility only to find that the cost is just outrageous so we can't fit that into our budget just yet, so I just started to just except that its just not the right time & its seems its that our prayers have yet to be heard.

But today that little bit of hope that I seemed to of put on the self & ignore returned.. there are a lot of people I know that have babies that were born in 2008 the same year as Shiloh & so far I know of 4 of them being pregnant again. So call me odd, call it pure weirdness, call it me finding something to give me hope but I think with that I might have a chance in conceiving naturally too!! I mean it happened with Shiloh why wouldn't it happen again for us? My sister has the same condition & she conceived both her babies naturally. So I am hoping that for us we can as well. Knowing that all these people are pregnant again just gives me that much more drive & motivation to continue trying & I feel excited about this. So I have a lot of praying to do & I hope you can join me & say a prayer for us as well. We want so badly to add to our family & to give Shiloh a sibling.. we know that God has a plan for everyone we just pray that this is part of what he has instore for us. Will we have a baby in 2010 just maybe.. I think keeping the hope can only lead to a great outcome.

Thanks for reading!

Comments

So for some reason my comments where going to my old account. So if you left me a comment on this blog & you don't see it please resend it. I do apologize for this.. I tried switching everything over & of course there had to be something that went wrong.

Thanks for your understanding :-)

Great News

So I have been looking into babysitting for a family for the past few weeks. If you read my Not Me Monday I went & met with a family on Friday who have a two year old boy {I will name B Boy} that they need a sitter for up to three days a week. Shiloh really enjoyed playing with B Boy & they were such nice people. I was hoping that they would pick me to watch their son & guess what today I received the call back that they did in deed choose me. YAY I am so excited to take on another adventure & to have more little feet running around. This is just going to be so fun & I love that it's going to keep me busy. I also love that its only going to be no more then three days a week so I can still have the one on one time that I love so much with my Shiloh. Plus B Boy is such a sweet talkative happy boy & that just makes it that more exciting. So I just wanted to share because I am so excited. Tomorrow we are going over to watch him for a couple of hours to do what we are calling a Test Run.. then I start watching him on Wednesday.

Not Me Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

~So on Monday I took Shiloh to the park & for a stroll In The Neighborhood.. it was such a nice day out. But we live in what I like to refer to the mini version of San Francisco.. its hilly to put it mildly. I will admit I am not in the greatest shape & on the way home it was Not Me who almost passed out from lack of air from pushing Shiloh up the hill to our house in her jogger stroller. It also was Not Me who pretended to have her mail key & then act surprised when I did not just so I could stop for a break. It also was Not Me who when she finally got to the garage get in & shut the door right away & then sit on the door stoop & allow Shiloh to roam the garage while I still tried to catch my breath. Nope it was Not Me who was so out of breath it actually scared me because I knew I had pushed my self way to far.

~I have been looking into babysitting for a family during the week to bring in some extra cash & to give Shiloh a playmate while at the same time filling my want for another baby.  So I had a call back to meet with a family on Friday at their home. I would never meet someone I have never met before at their home with my daughter & without my husband.. no Not Me. They seemed legit & like a nice family but it was Not Me who was up all night planning out what I would do if they were kidnappers or bad people. I mean it was Not Me who would think that I would ever be in a situation like that & it was Not Me who was starting rethink if I should go. Once I did get there I was relieved to see they were a normal family & not the kidnapping kind who would ever harm me.. so it was Not Me who felt like a complete idiot for ever thinking that way in the first place.


~Last but not least it was Not Me who deleted her blog & start a new one because she thought of a better name to call it & because she wanted her families names to be kept private. It is Not Me that is hoping that the name is more catchy & my post more intriguing. It is also not me who is absolutely in love with the new blog layout & colors & keeps going to it just to look at how pretty it is.. no way Not Me!

Many Face's Of Shiloh

Why The New Blog & Name

Well I started this blog thingy on a whim.. I didn't realize how much I would enjoy it & enjoy other people reading it. So I wanted it to fit my life & myself to a T. So for weeks I have been going over names & blog names.. & I finally decided on what the name should be. Accidentally On Purpose is a show that I have been watching since it started in 2009 & {short story} its a cute comedy about a lady in her 30's who has a one night stand with a guy in his 20's & ends up pregnant. At first she does not want to be with the younger guy but wants him in the babies life so they are friends & eventually move in together. Now on the show they have found that they are in love & are officially a couple & just about to be parents. So the show has a lot of similar things that Stephen & went through but also differences. {We were not a one night stand & he is not younger then me} So that is how I decided on the Blog Name. Other then that this blog is going to be for my daily thoughts, experiences, design ideas & of course for me to post pictures of Shiloh for friends & family that are far away to be able to keep up with. So I hope that all this changed doesn't take away my readers & can pull in more people to read. So enjoy, follow & please don't forget to leave comments.

Ta Ta For now

Without God

A friend of mine shared this with me & I just love it so I wanted to share it as well:

Without God.. Our Days Would Be:

SINday

MOURday

TEARSday

WASTEday

THRISTday

FIGHTday

&

SHATTERday

Seven days without God makes one WEAK!

I Can't Wait..

So I am getting really excited about moving... its less then a week away. Even though I am so over renting & so ready to be a home owner again, I am still excited to move to our new place that yes we are renting. The things I can't wait for:


I can't wait to have space again.
I can't wait to have an office/craft room again.
I can't wait to have a huge walk in closet that will fit all of our things & then some.
I can't wait to NOT HAVE THREE STORIES!!!
I can't wait to be some what settled in the town that we are probably going to be staying.. or at least I hope so.
I can't wait to start building friendships & start living again. {I haven't really ventured out where we currently live & made the efforts that I maybe should have to meet new people only because I knew we were moving again & where we live currently I haven't found the people to be as friendly as I had hoped.}
I can't wait to start attending church again on Sundays. I never really joined the church like I would have liked to because again I didn't want to build relationships only to say good bye. I have already found a beautiful church to attend right down the street from our new home & I can't wait to join.
I can't wait to have new appliances, new carpet & new lighting that is up to date. Where we live now its a bit dated & basic so its kind of boring.
I can't wait to be able to walk on the floors & not have the floors squeak. {Its been so annoying that when I go to check on Shiloh at night I almost wake her up every time because the floors squeak in every room where we are now.. that was the one thing I checked for when we looked for a new place.}
I can't wait to have full size washer & dryer again & not stackable ones.
I can't wait to not have to bring all my groceries from the car up a flight of stairs with a toddler in hand.
I can't wait till I can have my back windows open & have privacy & not feel like everyone is looking in who walks by.
I can't wait to have an actual two car garage again so that both of our vehicles car park inside.
I can't wait to have central heat & not these retarded wall heaters that in my opinion do not work well at all.
I can't wait to have an actual laundry room & not a small closet in Shiloh's bathroom for the washer & dryer.
The biggest thing I can't wait for is having my husband home before 8:00 PM on work nights & for him to not be tired all the time & be able to eat dinner as a family again.
So once the move is done & over with I will be one happy camper.. until then I am running around packing, stressing about not getting it all done & having lots of sleepless night because I have a million thoughts running through my head about moving ugh :-) Good Times!

Love Ikea

So yesterday on Stephen's day off we went to IKEA.. & I love going there.. every time I get super excited {can we say dork}, there is just something about that store that gets me all creative thinking like. We also for the first time had lunch at IKEA & it was yummy! I was always nervous to eat there but then everyone was telling we how good there food is & I can now say it is true. There chicken alfredo yummy & there marinara with meatballs so good!! OK enough food talk this blog is about IKEA LOL. We need to find some things for our new place & so we found quite a few things. I am so excited to go to Oregon IKEA & buy all of these things next month. {we drive there to shop for expensive things so we don't have to pay tax}. So here are a few of the things we are thinking of purchasing we are also going to go to The Old Cannery & look around too because they have a lot of awesome things too I hear!

{My Stephen Wheeling Shiloh In}

{We need to get Shiloh a new dresser & I love this one}

{We are going to get this bench for our entry.. unless we find one we like better}

{Love Love Love This Mirror!! We are For Sure Buying This}

{Burnt Orange Baby.. futon for our Office}

{Soon but not yet we will be buying Shiloh this toddler bed but in White}

& that is it for now.. let me know your thoughts if you have any! Smiles :-)

In The Neighborhood

So today Shiloh & I took a walk. The day was beautiful, blue skies in the 60's couldn't have asked for a better day to go out & play. Its been awhile since we have taken a stroll.. I know that sounds bad but we live in a very hilly area so its a challenge to push a jogger stroller up the hill with a baby who weights 22 lbs. & I haven't a clue how much the stroller weights but it was a challenge for me for sure. But we aren't going to talk about me almost dying on our way home nope we are going to talk about my lovely little bug loving the park & being outdoors. She loved walking around seeing the adults, children & dogs out & about. My child loves animals!! So I took a few pictures of our walk of the houses that I love so much  & of course of my princess enjoying her self at the park. I am going to miss this neighborhood but not the hills that is for sure!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

{photos by: Melissa Flores}

The Sky's The Limit

{photos by: Melissa Flores}

Not Me Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

So all the Christmas decorations are down.. well except for our wreath. I would never be so lazy to walk by it almost daily & ignore its existence No Not Me!

So we all have bad habits. Mine seems to be saying "Oh S@#t" at times when things go wrong. Well it seems I may have passed my bad habit off to my child, because the other day {& no she has not done it since} she was walking around going "Oh Sit" which sounds a lot like "Oh S@#t" & it was Not Me or my husband who where laughing because this is the first time she has ever copied someone saying a curse word.

I love Claim Jumper its one of my favorite places to dine out to. It was Not Me who went there with my sister in law to get an appetizer & who told myself to eat healthy.. who ended up ordering nachos & the chocolate chip calzone.. nope it was Not Me I would never fall that far outside my eating healthy routine.

So as I have been posting we are moving, so things in our house lately have been a bit unorganized & left out. But I would never leave piles of cloths about the house that are clean. I would never have done this so that I would not have to search threw them for things & make a mess everytime because each pile seems to have something I need. No never Not Me!!

Last night as Shiloh was waiting for Stephen to bring her some Milky she was standing there with her hand in her diaper & it was Not Me who was laughing because once she was done she had plumbers crack & was walking around this way for a few minutes so I could get it on tape.. I would never allow my child to stick her hand in her diaper no Not Me!

Shiloh has been wearing a size 3 diaper for ever now since she was like 11 months. She is now 16 months. I recently bought her 4's because she falls within the weight limit. But I do have some 3's left over. I would never have my child wear a diaper that is too small or fitting. No Not Me I would never do this so I could make sure not to waste them.

The other night Shiloh kept waking up crying. For about an hour she would cry I would go in there tuck her back in & reassure her everything was OK & return to bed. We did this from 1am until finally at 2am I had enough. It was Not Me who broke her New Years resolution {No More Shiloh Sleeping In Our Bed} & ended up bringing her in our room at 2am because I was tired & wanted to sleep. {Like MckMama said} "I am gonna miss this" when she gets older she is not going to want to sleep & cuddle with me.. so its OK if I take advantage now right because one day I am gonna miss these moments where Shiloh needs me to hold her in my arms so she can go to sleep!!

I Have Come To Realize..

Here are some things that I am realizing these days:

So we are moving on Jan. 29th & as I am packing & sorting through all the little its & bits we have I have come to realized we have just way too many things that make no sense or have no place in our home. I am finding that I have all kinds of decor that does not go with the theme of our home nor does it look good. But what do I do instead of getting rid of it.. I pack it. WHY? I really wanted this move to be organized & well put together but since we are moving a month sooner then we anticipated I don't have the time to go through everything. So this means that when we are moved I will have to do it then. Ugh sometimes I just wish there was more time for me to get things done the way I want them done.. but I have come to realize as a mom of a very active monkey child that most things go on the back burner & that even when I have a plan it may not go as smoothly as I intended but that its OK.. because life goes on no matter what.

On Friday I went to look at dresses with my sister in law {Wedding Dresses & Bridesmaid Dresses} which is so fun. But Shiloh made it impossible for me to give Kay my full undivided attention. Shiloh has now made it hard for me to take her places that have no interest for her. I never thought I would be that mom. I always thought I would be in control of my child & that keeping her happy wouldn't be a challenge. But I have come to realize.. that entertaining a 15 month old can be a challenge when you are sitting in a dress store with nothing for her to do but run around & laugh at herself in the mirror & that getting her to sit still for even just a second is merely impossible especially when she has an audience to entertain.


So we decided that this year 2010 we are not going to take any extravagant trips or doing any big spending so that we can stick to the budget for once & end up ahead at the start of a new year instead of behind. We have decided that there will be no trips to Florida to visit my family or to Texas to see Stephen's, that Hawaii may be calling our name but  that will have to wait for the following year to plan any trips like that. We instead are going to take a mini vacation one where we can relax & enjoy being three together. I can't wait & I have come to realize that we don't need to spend a lot to be happy that its the small things that can full fill all that we need & that in the end will leave us feeling relaxed & less stressed.

I have decided to give up hope on trying to have another baby for the time being. I am tired of hoping that each month could be the month that we may be lucky enough to have been blessed with another miracle child, but in return I am left feeling let down & disappointed so I have decided to not make it a mission of mine & to let God be in control. I know that one day we will get pregnant again naturally or we will be financially ready for fertility treatments. I have come to realize that I need to learned to let go of trying, but to not stop praying & hoping that it will happen when God decides its time. {I will always pray for another child & will still continue to hope that Shiloh will one day have a sibling to laugh & share memories with like I do with my sister.}

In life we all have falling outs with others, fights, disagreements & some people grow apart or just fall apart. Peoples feelings get hurt, rules aren't followed, some go behind others backs, some just do nothing & some just sit & wait for others to correct the situation. But one thing that I have come realize is that no matter how much you talk about it with others & vent & cry the situation will never get resolved unless you talk to the other person involved. That yes talking to others about it & getting advice or just letting it out is wonderful but if you don't ever let the other person know how you feel then you will never be at peace or have closer which in the end can ruin a relationship & leave you questioning why things are the way they are. So I have come to realize that going to the source of the problem is the only solution to the problem & that as scary as it may seem its the right thing to do.

So my point of this bog is that I have come to realize that accepting & moving forward is all you can do in any situation. That life wont stand still because you don't know what to do or how to over come a situation. I wrote this so I can look back & remind myself of this because sometime I forget that not everything will be as we want all the time, that sometimes we don't have control & that is just life. I have come to realize that even writing this has brought a better understanding for myself.. so I am glad I did & that I can share this with all of you.

What I Love About Seattle

So for people who ask me what I love about Seattle here is why. I love the big city & all the fun it brings. I love all the season's we get to have here. I love being near the ocean yet not having to experiance extrem heat like I did when I lived in Florida {I just wish air conditioning here was more common}. I love Pikes Place Market, the waterfalls & the wild flowers in spring. The people & their creativity. I love being in the city but driving 30 minutes out of it & being in the country & mountains. The rain doesn't bother me & neither does the crazy traffic because I am so lucky to live in such an amazing city. But mostly what I love most is the beautiful scenery & capturing it with my camera. Here is what I have so far:

 

 

{Photo By: My Mother In Law}

{Photo By: My Brother In Law}

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is Why I Love Seattle

{Photos By: Melissa Flores}

Girls Day Out

So yesterday my mother in law & I left Shiloh with Daddy bear & had a day of girl time. You know I can honestly say that I truly needed this. I can't remember the last time I was Shiloh free for a day of girl time.. I love my daughter so don't take this the wrong way but I hardly take time away for myself. So my mother in law called last week & said she would like to spend a day with me which was nice to hear because it has been awhile since we have spent time together one on one. So she picked me up yesterday at 11am & we first started out with lunch at Coho's. We had a glass of wine {which made me feel a little funny since I hardly drink} ate some scrumptious food & had great adult conversation. Then after lunch we did some browsing at Ross {where I found the perfect chair for our new room at our new place} then we headed over to get pedicures. I tell you I love being pampered & I haven't had a pedi since August so I was so in need of it. I have to say it was so nice to have this time with her to talk about things & to laugh together. I feel so lucky to have such a wonderful mother in law & I honestly enjoy her company. We have had a lot going on lately & for a few months now we have been a little distant & butting heads so this exactly what I needed. I need to do this more & not just with my mother in law but with my sister in laws & friends too I need to make more time for me outside of my mommyland/wifeworld.. I think it helps keep me sane LOL.

Not Me Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

It was Not Me who canceled her Dr appointment because she was avoiding to her about the fertility treatments & cost because she knows that right now we can not afford it & didn't even set up a date to reschedule no Not Me.

Shiloh had her 15 month check on Tuesday & it was Not Me who allowed her to run around screaming in our room while we waited for the Doctor. It was was Not Me who also allowed her to throw the books about making a mess in the doctors office either no Not Me :-)

It was Not Me on Friday who went to lunch with my sister in law & had carna asada knowing that it was going put me way over my calorie count for the day & put me on a bad eating cycle the rest of the weekend too no Not Me

It was Not Me who on Saturday made an appointment to speak to a lady about a home on the phone only to let it go to voice mail when she called because we had already decided on a place & who has still not called her back to let her know.. no I would never be so rude.. oops!


It is Not Me who is allowing Shiloh to watch cartoons today for hours while I call all of our utilities to get them transferred over to our new place no not me I would never allow that.

Roller Coaster Ride

The fun part of the roller coaster: So this weekend we found a home a place to rent in Puyallup. We still are not ready to buy & won't be for a few years. We want to make sure that we are staying put before home ownership again. But its actually bigger then our old home {1770 sq ft} with a huge master with a huge walk in closet just what we need for all Stephen's cloths.. yes you heard me right STEPHEN'S {the man has tons}. But its has nice new carpet paint finishes & flooring. Its a bit more then we wanted to pay but well worth it for all we are offered. But making that decision was super stressful & time consuming.. its sucks moving & finding a place to fit & especially when you are not that familiar with the area. But this will be great for our family. I will no longer feel like a single mom anymore who's baby daddy visits us for an hour or two a night & once a week & Sundays. I swear for almost a year now.. Stephen has left our house in the morning at 6:15 am & most nights doesn't even get home before 8 pm. So lets just sum it up as a rough past year.. I mean I love staying home & raising Shiloh but I miss my husband & having his help at the end of the day. So it will be nice to have him home by dinner & to help get Shiloh ready for bed. We move on the 29th YAY.

The bumpy not so fun part of the roller coaster: So this part I am not going to get into too much detail because they are issues I am super sensitive about & not wanting to share exact details on my blog or really with anyone to be honest its something between Stuff Muffin & I {it has nothing to do with our marriage either} Anyways.. this weekend for some reason I was an emotional wreak!! I never cry I can't remember the last time I had a good cry... I mean I cry in sad movies & I am an emotional person & I tear up but never cry so much that I can't hold it in or that my eyes swell up the size of golf balls & my eyes bright red making the green in my eyes something wicked. But man for some reason I was a wreak the other night. There are issues I have that I am still learning to deal with, except, come to terms with, understand & voice. But I am unsure how sometimes. I think I just hit my boiling point this weekend & man did it come out. I haven't felt so sad, scared, helpless or angry ever before over this issue then I did & it was horrible. If I could say I hate dislike anything {which I refuse to ever use the word hate} it would be to show I am vulnerable to anyone.. how sad is that. I for some reason feel it shows me a s someone who is weak & I don't want anyone to perceive me in this way. But even Stephen, I have a hard time crying in front of & for the life of me I don't know why??? {OK well I sort of do but that is whole other topic that I am not touching on EVER!!} But anyways I had to make some choices as a mother, wife & person that were not easy but I truly believe that when your gut tells you one thing you should ALWAYS listen to it so I am. I never want to feel this kind of sadness again.. I hate loosing control of my emotions & not knowing how to get a grip BUT at least now I have come to an agreeance & understanding with Stephen on a certain issue & he understands {I pray} & from here on out I should never feel the kind of emotion I felt the other night. What I love about my husband even if he is stubborn & non confrontational, is that when I show how much something means to me or something that really touches or hurts me deeply he is always there to listen show concern & make it better & that is why I love him So Very Much!!

The scare but finally the end of the ride: So while we were out today at the Wedding Expo we had my in laws watch our monkey. When we were done we called to check on her to find that she had fallen & bumped her head. They told us they called us but ended up having to leave a voice mail {I can't stand when I don't hear my phone in time of need}. They don't call unless it is something super sever so I was in panic mode. We were eating lunch & again I didn't want to show I was vulnerable but deep down I wanted to run out of there to the car & speed as fast as we could over there to make sure my princess was OK. They said they had been icing her bump & that she had stopped crying & was fine now but as a mom {& I am sure most can agree} when your baby is hurt you want to always rush to their side. So we left & after the hour long drive to pick her up she seemed fine & in good spirits aside from the huge bump & bruise above her left eye. I think my in laws no my mother in law was more shook up over the incident then Shiloh was. My poor mother in law felt horrible & still does which leaves me feeling sad for her. I reassured her that she was fine & I even called the on call doctor on the way home to make sure & then again had Stephen call her this evening to let her know she was fine. Even though I still have to wake her in her sleep {to make sure she comes too & does not have a concussion} in the middle of the night, she has not done a thing out of the norm. Was still the happy. very active. talkative toddler that I love so dearly.. & I thank God for watching over her this weekend & for keeping her simi safe. I have learned as a mom that accidents happen, kids fall & get hurt but they are tough & heal quickly. But mostly I have learned that everyday is a new challenge as a parent or even grandparent & I learn something new weather it be good or bad.. put we always make it out OK & I can only thank God for that & for watching over us.

Well its late I am going to check on my baby & head to bed.. this roller coaster was a draining one for sure & I have been looking forward to my bed all day long. Goodnight & sweet dreams.

Shiloh & Her Kitchen

My little dare devil of a child.. who makes it impossible for me to get anything done because I look away for a second & this is what I find:

{Why does Shiloh love to climb & sit on her kitchen}

{I even moved it but she still has found a way}

{Thanks Aunt Sandy for the Kitchen :-)}

Shiloh & Her Crib

So for months I have tried to get Shiloh to sleep in her crib it has been a fight every day for nap time & for bed time. So needless to say I turned into the mom who allowed her child to sleep with us. Well one of my New Years resolutions was to get her back in her crib. So far it has been a breeze. The first few days she would cry or only sleep for a few hours then wake up crying. So I decided that instead of going into her room when she cries to let her cry for at least 10 minutes & if she didn't stop then Stephen or I would go in there & lay her down cover her up & tell her its bed time.. and it worked YAY. The last 3 nights she has gone to bed without fussing & has slept to 9 AM or later. This is awesome. We are all getting a much better nights sleep & I couldn't be happier.. plus its nice to not wake up to a slap in the face or her heading butting me LOL. I hope that this continues & that sleeping with mommy & daddy is a thing of the past.. I mean we didn't buy a crib just to have a nursery that is never used right?  I mean I know that her room where we live currently is nothing like her old room but its still cute. Here are some pictures of her room at our old house & her at our temporary home. {I can't wait to buy a home again & be able to give her a room like the one I did in Oregon.

{Her old room}

{New Room}

 

{It was so cute & perfect}

 

{Still cute but kind of boring}